One sees the world in a very calm, relaxed way. "Let it be what it is," he says. He takes things one step at a time and trusts to God's providence. He is the heart.
The other sees that sometimes loving is hard and rational decisions have to be made that might feel bad. He is the mind.
Then there's me...and I'm trying to figure out how to reconcile the two: the rational and the emotional.
Today I made a choice that I think is my first step in finally reconciling my mind and my heart. For the first time, I am not polarizing myself, using just my reasoning or using just my heart. I listened to my feelings and thought about what to do. And then I did it.
It was not easy, but it was right. I think I'm going to be OK.
Though the outcome of what's been happening the last few weeks was not what I wanted, I think I finally understand why I was led here. It's because after I learned how to use my heart without using my head, and then learned how to use my head without listening to my heart, God wanted me to learn how to use both. So he gave me this difficult situation and I responded to his will.
I'm going to look forward to the next lesson. I hope it's a happier one!
There was a dream that I dreamed, a dream for head and heart.